Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in fuckyolyfe's LiveJournal:

Sunday, February 5th, 2006
1:20 pm	i love my life. :D ew. except i have bad alergies my eyes get extremely crusty. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 26th, 2006
8:24 pm	im seriously dying. . i can taste it. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
7:03 pm	fuck. . . im sneezing like a bitch. did youknow hitler was a veggie? (Comment on this)
Monday, January 23rd, 2006
3:43 pm	homophobics are gay Wow. . .What to say about today? I guess I should start by saying what happend on saturday, Jon Micheal a junior from my school was murderd. I personally did not know him, but wow. . it is such a shock when you see the reallity of someone so young dying. Expecailly bieng murderd by someone 10 years older than he was. It seriously had made me think about some of the ways I look at life. Today at school only about half of the students showed up, about a third of the students that did show up were in tears the whole day. I cried a little bit, just because of how depressing it is. So in 7th period me and Joe are just chillin and we heard our sub. teacher talking about disease and somehow that turned into gay people diseasing the world he said "gay people need to be put in a camp and killed before they infect anyone else" Joe called him hitler for that remark. haha. Joe also said "but i'm gay" and the teacher says "you are a danger to this classroom" so of course I got in on this and asked him a few more questions about what he said. . he just kept going on wiht his bullshit. and iwas like fuck this and i picked up my stuff and said i'm leaving, Joe left with me. We went to the consolrs and filled out a statement and basically walked around the school for about a half hour. Current Mood: crushed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
9:10 pm	I like someone new. i'm seing him tomorrow. im excited as for the inconvience in my life that I have been referring to as dylan, well. That is over for sure. He hasn't called or i/m'd me. He needs to learn what a woman is really worth, iv'e givin him everything i possibly could in this world, and to him i'm just a hook-up. It's not that i don't love him, its just that I need to break this bad habbit. I don't know why I let him hurt me like this again. . . Seriously. Everytime i have a spare moment, I just think. I think about him. and me. and us. and i like analyze every little thing. anyway. life is good. my hair is a dark brown. Iv'e still got a little but of hash left. half a pack of ciggarettes left. all my music on my computer.yep. life is great. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 19th, 2006
9:47 pm	it hurts,bad.This shit is deep. Fuck, i'm never letting my emotions out again. Kanye can't help this. . . .i'm gettin offline Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
8:08 pm	Having half days hardly make up for having to start the day off with 3 and a half hours of exams. The last 2 days really havent been that bad. I hung out with Dylan today. I want to talk to him right now. but he hasnt called back (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
2:57 pm	yay life I couldn't fall asleep last night. my stomache-nervous my mind- racing my nose-bleeding I took a second to think of the situation. "i'm dying" I told myself that a few times and finally fell asleep I woke up to the beeping of my alarm clock. My face-covered in blood. Went to the bathroom, washed it off. covered my face in foundation and powder. I think about what I would look like if I never wore make-up again. My mind quickly changed the subject. I grabbed a banana. walked out the door. Put a smile on my face, Everyones happy. Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Monday, January 16th, 2006
9:52 pm	so its been a while. . . before the holidays i think. . .yes well some things have been keeping me life interesting. . . some things have been keepin it chill. . one thing probally the most "on-going" is: Dylan - We started talking again. . .I told him I still loved him. . .big mistake. Yes.I do still love him but, I know the feeling is not mutual. . .but, of course he said he loved me too and I went to his house that day. . .we ended up kissing. Even bigger mistake. It made me love him and miss him more.Wow. I'm starting to cry as i'm writting this. That day that we kissed it felt like we were never broken up, like we were still the "dylan and lauren" everyone knew us as. Inseperable. That feeling that he can give me is truly incredable. No other person in this world has mae me feel the way he can make me feel just by simply looking in my eyes. Or touching my face. Or when I see his number show up on my caller i.d. For 3 months that feeling was compleatly gone. Then it came back. but, something is different now. After the whole kissing thing we kinda told each other we loved each other. . .it was mostly me. I would still tell him I love him. becuase I do. Then things quickly started to change back to how they were before we started talking again. We are friends but he doesn't call. . .doesn't I/M. . . doesn't feel the same way for me as I do for him. . . Klinton is still in my life as well. . . I have mixed feelings for him. . .I like that he does whatever I say and doesnt argue with me. ever. We have never gotten in a fight. I do like him. . .i'm just not sure if it is more as a friend. He is great to me but, I just don't get the same feelings for him as i do for dylan... Other than the love life. Things are kind of iffy. My grandpa was released from the hospital. . . It looks like his herion adict wife who abandond him a week before christmas to be a prostitute came to his house drugged him out so he would pass out. . nearly killed him, stole his methadone and some other pills and left him there passed out with the door wide-open. The homecare nurse found him unconsious lying in urine. The only thing I have to say about that is: if i see that skinny herion-adict haggrid ass bitch again, I will seriously beat the shit out of her. (if you know me, you're probally like "haha you cant fight!!" but this bitch is like 85 pounds. I could take her. haha) Friends are better then ever. Not really very much drama with friends. which is a great change for the better. well im going to bed. ill get back on this Current Mood: blank (1 Comment |Comment on this)